Bend Over Jessica

Over the past couple of years, He Who Must Be Obeyed has produced, as a Christmas stocking filler for me, a calendar for the New Year. It’s one of those ones where you can upload your own photographs for each month, so you have a lovely reminder of what you have done the whole of the next year.

I love them. I love the care that goes into choosing the images, the thrill I get as the end of the month approaches and I can look forward to the new picture, which will represent a time in my life where I was really enjoying myself and with people who mean a lot to me.

In a way, that calendar is a physical representation of how lucky I am. How, despite my life sometimes being sad, irritating, unhappy and downright annoying, I am blessed. I am blessed with an adoring husband, a lovely Lover, some amazing friends and some excellent kink play. So what if I don’t have the career I always thought I would, that sometimes I don’t get the play I want or the attention I crave. There are moments in my year that are as close to perfection as I could ever want them to be. And my calendar is a reminder of this. It’s my happiness measure.

I would love to post some of the pictures here for all of you to see. Sadly, although I’m open about what I look like, many of the people in my life, including HWMBO and The Lover are not, so I can’t. But I can assure you all that every time I make a cup of tea in our kitchen and this month’s picture catches my eye, I smile and remember how good it was and how much good is still to come.

Lucky lucky me!