It’s nearly the end of June and I am heading towards the end of my imprisonment from pleasure – i.e. on the 1st of July, I shall be able to indulge in proper CP again. I *really* can’t wait!
This month has been really hard. I didn’t realise how much I enjoy the feeling of being spanked or strapped. I know it’s been frustrating for Dom guys that I know, not least He Who Must Be Obeyed. Because when a girl is as cheeky as I am, there’s nothing like a jolly good thrashing to make her remember to behave.
Even I have missed it. I’m not sure if I’m addicted to the sensation of being punished, but I have yearned for correction this month. But at the same time, I’ve enjoyed my topping adventures, which I’ve done a lot more of than usual to make up for my own deficiencies.
I have two major worries about the end of the month. First of all, what if I can’t take it anymore and that more than a light spanking is agony? Because don’t get me wrong, I like the pain, but the pain has to be manageable, otherwise it’s not sexy anymore. And playmates are used to me taking a certain amount. Will they be disappointed if I can’t?
Secondly, when I spend time being dom, I do sometimes tend to forget what it’s like to be sub. So will I enjoy my first few thrashings after the break or will I resent them and fight against the machine? I will have to hope that the first few people I get whacked by take trouble to draw me into a proper submissive role and don’t just lay about me with a stick – or the real-life Jessica will just get angry and not enjoy it at all.
You don’t really miss something until it’s gone. But then, when you’re about to get it back, do you somehow end up not wanting it?
Jessica, what worked for me was to start slowly, say at 50% of what she was used to and gradually build up, you might even find that your limits have grown.
Warm hugs,
Paul.
I have to say, I haven’t envied you. If a week is a long time in politics, a month is a lifetime in spanking… I hope your fears aren’t realised and you haven’t lost too much tolerance. Even if you have though, I’m sure your playmates will be understanding, they know you’ll be back up to speed soon!
I have come to the conclusion that ‘tolerance’ is nothing to do with your bottom and everything to do with your state of mind and how you feel about play. So if you’re feeling positive and excited about being spanked again, then hopefully it should all be just fine
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Hope you have a fabulous time xx.
I find that it takes longer for the endorphins to kick in when I haven’t played in several weeks, so I need a gentler and longer warm-up– sometimes I think I’ll never get there. Once they kick in, though, my tolerance is as good as it ever gets, as far as I can tell.
I’m with Faye on the issue of tolerance: if you’re out of practice, but excited and going for it, you can take lots more than if you’re feeling “meh”, but played yesterday.
Enjoy your return to form, darling.